I don’t think many people credit Whitesnake with inspirational and life affirming lyrics but today is the day that I say, yes! Yes, Whitesnake, not only do I thoroughly enjoy the video with Tawny Kitaen rolling and thrusting around atop a black Jaguar but I truly believe that if I was the age I am now in the 80’s I would have been a video vixen or a hair band groupie just as Kitaen (!!) I feel every line and every lyric. Although my impossible dream is just that, the video and the lyrics to the song truly express a free-ness that is now coming to inside of me. I feel like jumping into a car, rolling the windows down, letting my hair loose and flipping it around as wildly as I can. Right now I feel young and free and with that free-ness come a strange form of determination, hanging onto and learning from the past but I ain’t wasting no more time. Here I go again…

Do you like Jag-uuars?

I don’t know where I’m goin’
But I sure know where I’ve been
Hanging on the promises in songs of yesterday
An’ I’ve made up my mind, I ain’t wasting no more time
Here I go again, here I go again

I’m ready to move forward and with that attitude change, it means it must be summer!

No wonder I feel so happy and carefree.

I hate that this feeling is only temporary.

I want to feel like this 24/7 and 365 days of the year!

Only now do I think back positively and actually see what I have accomplished and have finally given in and chose the path of least resistance (internally, of course) and follow my dreams of being a writer and eventual entrepreneurship. I know where I have been (down, way, way down) and how I have not felt like my high achieving self for a couple of years now, not feeling as accomplished as the day I walked across the stage graduating college and accepting my BA in Media Studies (minor in Political Science, har har) and my succeeding law school acceptances. I have wasted so much time figuring out my next moves, what exactly I want and how to reach my goals (that I have set very high yet realistically for myself) and have tried desperately to break away from my institutionalized way of thinking and of life I have known since I’m 5 years old (damn it’s fucking hard). Becoming your own boss and following your own creative endeavors is one of the most freeing yet scariest decisions I have ever made in my entire life but I am set on the extraordinary and I do not want to waste a perfectly good me.

I feel as if I have finally reached the Welcome to Adulthood sign at this point in the journey, the knowing where you have been but choosing the career path where you’re not sure where you’re going and despite the uncertainty of it, it’s wonderful. Making choices in my opinion, is what truly defines adulthood, along with the freedom of that choice.

In choosing a creative field where the possibilities are quite endless you truthfully cannot say where you are going but you are definitely along for a most wonderful ride that hopefully at some point includes a Jaguar.

Though I keep searching for an answer
I never seem to find what I’m looking for
Oh Lord, I pray you give me strength to carry on
‘Cause I know what it means
To walk along the lonely street of dreams

Here I go again on my own
Going down the only road I’ve ever known
Like a drifter, I was born to walk alone
And I’ve made up my mind
I ain’t wasting no more time

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